wow, wow, wow. Can I just expound on those wow's for a moment? WOW, WOW, WOW. GOD is SO incredible. [I love how basic the concept of prayer is.] hahhahaha, seriously! Our hearts and mouths cry out to an ocasionally seemingly invisible God. At times, I wonder, "God, are you getting this? Am I getting this message through to you properly, or is the 'mailer-daemon' sending it back my way, to be unread, undeard." In my logic, I do recognize that God answers prayer. I know this from experience, plenty. However, it doesn't always feel so simple. THINGS just get in the way. Limitations, anything, can make me wonder if God is near or far, which complicates talking to Him! Sometimes, the 'life-decision' prayer skill feels father from simple than the highest knowledge found on earth! *sigh* Sometimes, I wonder to myself if the words are getting anywhere at all, or if they are totally empty or meaningless or, ultimately, worthless. So, I TRUST. I remind myself like lightening to NOT let doubt or fear take ahold of my HOPE, my prayers, my faith or my trust.
This week God has flooded in. He is shaping my heart and conforming my desires to His. He is allowing me unique minsitry opportunities that are purely relational in nature, not having to do with any organization I'm a part of, and it's SO way cool. He is giving me ideas, and in that way, speaking to me, whispering to my heart. All that... I PRAYED for. He heard and He answered.
And so, these days, I keep laying it down, whatever the 'it' might be each day, I let go and LEAN on Him, TRUST His heart for me. I want to transform my life yet again to be lived with the mantra (of sorts) "to walk by faith". I trust that He will bring all things to pass in due time.
